"Barroom Blues"

C. Steven Blue performs "Barroom Blues"
@ Carry On @ Cush, Eugene, OR - 10/7/2014

From the books:
S.O.S. ~ Songs Of Sobriety ~ A Personal Journey Of Sobriety
and
WORDSONGS-3, Recovery

“Barroom Blues”
 
Standing here
At the edge of the bar,
Wine glass in my hand.
 
My eyes are red
And you can see their sadness,
But I just don’t understand.
 
Why won’t you come over
And talk to me?
I want to be a part of you
 
You all seem so happy
            But I . . .
I just don’t know what to do.
 
I’ve got these silent, withdrawn,
Barroom blues
            Again.
 
Don’t know how
I can go on anymore,
I think it’s the end.
 
Yeah, I’ve got these silent, withdrawn,
Barroom blues
            Once again,
 
And no matter what happens,
It seems . . .
like I just can’t win.
 
–4 bars rest–
 
Why am I HERE ALONE
At the end of the bar?
Think I’ll have another shot!
 
Then maybe you’ll think
I’m good enough,
‘Cause I sure want what you’ve got.
 
Why can’t I
Just quit this drinkin’
And get on with my life?
 
Where is mine—where is she--
And why is everything
So screwed up in my life?
 
–4 bars rest–
 
I’ve got these silent, withdrawn,
Barroom blues
            Again.
           
Don’t know how
I can go on anymore,
I think it’s the end.
 
Yes, I’ve got these silent, withdrawn
Barroom blues
            Once again,
 
And no matter what happens,
It seems . . .
like I just can’t win.
 
No I just can’t win!
 
No I just can’t win!
 
I’m so messed up!
I’ve been here
So many times before.
 
Think I’ll just, uh . . . drink
Till I black out in the back of my car.
Then nothing will matter
Or hurt . . . anymore!
 
Barroom blues!
No I just can’t win
 
            © C. Steven Blue 4/27/1991